This is for you.
For those of you who feel isolated, distanced, lonely.
For those of you who can't remember how to smile.
For those of you who don't think anyone else will understand.
For those of you who feel pathetic, worthless, useless...
Or worse, completely numb.
I know you hate yourself and think that this feeling will last forever.
I know you've contemplated it a million times before and you're exhausted of the constant pain.
I know you're hurting, longing, waiting. I know you feel like the storm won't pass.
I know that you have no motivation, no energy, and you don't see the point, to anything. I know your every thought is controlled by something dark and sinister.
I know how much you wake up wishing you hadn't.
I know what it feels like to hate yourself that much.
I know you think you'll never remember what happiness feels like, and that you think it will never get any better.
...But I also know that it will.
It will get better.
And you will feel happiness again.
I know that there is so much to look forward to in life, and these thoughts and feelings are just temporary symptoms.
I know you will smile again, and laugh so hard milk runs out of your nose. I know you'll feel love, try new things, travel to far off places, and taste foods you didn't know existed.
I know you'll overcome this battle. And countless others.
I know you'll live a full life of mistakes but hold no regrets.
I know you'll feel the sand between your toes again, experience many more first kisses and probably lose your clothes when you go skinny dipping, again.
I know you'll probably take endless photos, trek mountains, and make memories you couldn't even dream of.
I know you'll probably have your heart broken, maybe more than once...
But then you'll be okay again.
Because I know you're strong.
Because you've lived with yourself, for just another hour, or just another day, when all you wanted to do was die. That's the hardest thing you'll ever have to do.
And you're already doing it..
I know it's worth it.
Love and light,